Struggles

Some of you know that I have been going through a difficult time the past few weeks. I have been slowly falling away from God. I would only eat when people were around, otherwise i wouldn't eat. During In-Hall chapel my RA spoke, and it really caught my attention and I started talking to her about how I feel. She was able to talk me through some things and pray with me, so were my roomates. Then on Saturday night during Connecting Hope Michael had us pray before we went out and hit the streets. He had said if any of us needed prayer to come up and he would pray with us. So i went up. I told him briefly what was going on then we prayed. The next day (Sunday) I was praying in my room, and really felt Gods comfort and peace come in my life again. Around nine that night I had recommited my life to Christ. I went and I talked to Kayla about everything. On Tuesday in chapel we had a quaker service. During it someone started to sing the song How He Loves Us and God really started to speak truth into my life. A little while later a girl had called girls up who needed prayer or encourgement, so i went up and I was able to get prayer to help me fight the lies satan has been telling me, to overcome me not eating when I was alone, and to just see how beautiful and loved I am to God. God has been working through me for the past week or so now just challangeing me, and making me stronger in my faith. God is a good and faithful God, and He'll never give you to much that you cant handle. Now that i am overcoming everything I see how much God truly does love for me and care, and that i was foolish to believe those things I have been believeing. This recovery time is going to be hard to get back to being myself, so your prayers and support would be helpful, but one thing I know for sure is that God will never leave me, and I am His Child, and He loves me so much. Thank you all for helping me. I love you.   I know this is later, but on Wednesday God was telling me that my battle is over, He beat it for me! And how true it was! Im slowly eating more and more. God is so good.





I wrote this in October. Since October I have overcome more things.  I have been struggling with cutting for quite awhile. I also have struggled with depression. I went to the doctor seeking help, because I knew that there were some things that I couldn't do on my own and this was one of them. As of tomorrow, it will be one month since I have took a blade to my leg. I have had the thoughts, but God has helped me overcome them. I started taking medication for the depression and have felt a lot better about myself and life. (God had a lot to do with this too.) I was set free from a lot of things that was holding me back.  God is not done with my story yet. His love is the best thing, and it's what is keeping me alive.
                                                                                  Living God's love story out.
                                                                                                  -In His Grip. <3 Tiera