Beauty

What is beauty?  
             According to the dictionary beauty is defined as A combination of qualities, such as shape, color, or form, that pleases the aesthetic sense. 
What is Self-Image?
                  The conception that one has of oneself, including an assessment of qualities and personal worth.
What I want to know is why people get so caught up with it. Many people today say "oh, I'm not beautiful." They think that they're either too fat, or too skinny. They have other flaws. Their body isn't how they want it to be. Self Image is a major thing to do with beauty. If you have a negative self image, you'll have a bad sense of your beauty. Beauty is not about the outward appearance.

I know in my life I have struggled with this way more than I should. I grew up with my older sister who is beautiful beyond belief. I was jealous. I always thought that being beautiful meant having long hair, wearing makeup and nice tight clothing. I was none of that. I had short hair. I didn't wear make-up. I wore baggy clothing to hide the scars on my wrist. The weight that I was losing. I had turned into a monster. To be "beautiful" in the worlds standards, I stopped eating, I cut myself. I would do anything to be beautiful. I didn't realize that I was already beautiful the way I WAS. I didn't need to starve myself. I didn't need to be how society wanted me to be. They put on unrealistic expectations for girls my age to see. 

 

It wasn't until I got to my senior year of high school when I truly found out what beauty actually consisted of. Everyone there was so lost. I saw their brokenness. I came to a point where I was just like them. I couldn't go on. I didn't want to end up like them. I wanted respect. I didn't want to flaunt super super tight clothes anymore. I realized that it was a stumbling block for men. I realized that beauty is skin deep. 

"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the -->UNFADING<-- beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight." 1 Peter 3:3-4. 

I found out that  if you are not dressed like a whore people actually pay attention to your personality, which is where the true beauty is. If you allow people to "check you out" it is just them saying, "omg, look at that body, it is great.. and their minds wander."  They wont respect you and your boundaries, because you dress like a slut. I never really dressed to terrible (I think) but I saw many around me make the decision.

If you don't find your beauty in God, you don't know true beauty. You have fast food beauty, meaning that you try everything that the world has to offer but you cant perfect it. You always feel like something is missing. You go to these empty wells to find perfection but just get hurt over and over again.

When I think of beauty in my life, I think of God. With God I know that I never have to worry about going to these empty wells to try and fill my "beauty need". All I need to do is go to my God and be like "hey, Man upstairs, I'm struggling in this area. Please help me to see that I am beautiful, and how YOU CREATED ME TO BE." I don't want to have the worldly beauty because that just brings on a bunch of hurt, pain, and unnecessary scars. It also brings disappointment. You think that cutting doesn't hurt anyone. You are 100% wrong. Just like I was. It hurts your close friends and family just as much as you.

Think Beauty.
BE
Earnestly
Artsy
Unique
Truthful
YOURSELF

 And most of all remember, God made you special. You are beautiful. Whether believe it or not. Don't let others tell you that you're not beautiful, because God doesn't make ugly things. You are his BEAUTIFUL child. He is looking down on you smiling. <3

 

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